It's 6:30 AM now, and an hour ago I woke up from the sound
of the missiles alarm.
It's the 5th day I'm waking up in such unreasonable hours
by that stupid alarm.
[well, maybe except 5 days ago- when I woke up at 9:20 AM,
but then I woke up from the terrible missiles explosions sound,
not the alarm]

And I just can't stand it anymore.
I'm tired of sleeping 2-3 hours at night cause I'm afraid that if I'll sleep too deep, I would miss the alarm.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of running to the shelters every time the alarm is activated - a thing that's happening every two hours.
I'm tired of worring so -fucking- much.
I'm tired of staring in disbelief at the top news channels- CNN, BBC & Sky News- Is that really how they're presenting us?
Are'nt they suppose to be neutral?

And I'm tired- more than anything- from that madding sense of
unknowing what's gonna happen, and who's gonna be the next
one to die.


I just want my every day life. Is that too much to ask?


I'm sorry for this stupid entry. I *really* hate complaining, but I
just could'nt stand it anymore- as I was saying earlier.
[ And I'm sorry for my English mistakes- I'm too tired to correct them]